1.6 litre speed demon (artificialworld) wrote,
1.6 litre speed demon

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Who can't make decisions

eroticore: Happy birthday!

Well, I was half expecting to wake up this morning to find that the early arrival of daylight savings time had caused all the electronics to suffer a meltdown, and the world was in chaos. Nope, no chaos here.

So it's that time of year again. I'm supposed to be picking classes for next quarter, which is turning out to be a bit distressing. In the course of things, I realised that I really have no clue what I'm doing and I need to figure out a goal to work toward. I had planned on completing an Associate in Science at Shoreline and then transferring up to the University of Washington as a Computer Science major, but that's opening up a whole new can of worms. 1) I don't need the Associates since I already have a Bachelor's in art, and 2) since I already have a degree, I have to apply to the UW as a post-baccalaureate, which is highly competitive, and I'm terrified I won't get in, because if you don't get accepted into the department for your intended major, you don't get into the school at all apparently. Ack, fear, trepidation, yes.

I would go to UW Bothell, except they only offer the CS stuff, and there's no Japanese/Technical Japanese/Math/Any other program I might fancy taking.

You know what sucks? Every time I look at a course list (doesn't matter what school, because it's happened for every school I've attended so far and then some), I find 3.5 zillion courses I want to take, few of which have any real bearing on my life or career track. They just sound like absurd amounts of fun. Additionally, I'm constantly flip-flopping back and forth over what I want to do. I like computers and programming fascinates me, so Computer Science is a good choice for a second degree. But I also love math. I mean, I could spend hours solving calculus and differential equations problems for the rest of my life, just for fun. If I do get into the UW, I know I'm going to want to take like 5 minors in addition to the 2nd bachelor's. I'd consider double majoring, except I kind of like being alive.

How the hell do you go to college for 5.5 years and still not know what you want to do? I'm going to be a student for the rest of my life at this rate. I want to continue learning things until my head explodes from all the information or something, I don't know. I'd rather continue doing this than enter the workforce though, which is bad. I can't continue living in my parents' house forever. Just, arrgh. God damn it.

Shoreline has a 5-credit, 3-week study abroad geology course in Iceland this summer. It's around $3500 including tuition and travel expenses, and you get to go walk around on volcanoes and study the effects of seismic activity on the land and local residents. I want to go so badly it's unreal. Too bad my wallet is laughing at me. Too bad the course is also entirely useless for anything else I'm considering doing, except that I remember being about 7 years old and reading the National Geographic issue about the eruption in Heimaey over and over until I had the article practically memorized.

Anyway, back to the point. I'm not exactly helping myself decide what to take next quarter. I'm kind of debating whether I want to continue with Physics. If I don't take it, I have time to take (and devote the time I want to) the continuation of multivariable calc, and I could take intro to drafting (which could suck but be very useful), or hey, a programming course (Since, well...ostensibly that's what I hope to be studying)! but the next quarter of physics is required for a couple of the UW programs I'm looking at but not certain about yet. Blast.

In other news, Ricebucket needs gas and windshield wipers, so I think an errand is in order.
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